dinnertime!

Today we continued blocking the scene in which I’m drunk and highly inappropriate. It’s hard to act drunk with a comical aspect while maintaining the underlying emotions. It’s something I need to work on but feel I’m slowly but surely getting the hang of. Scotty.W mentioned something today that stuck out in my mind, in Mon Mon’s soliloquy’s there’s a strong sense of anger and frustration that need to come out. Mon is angry that she settled for an unhappy marriage and unhappy lifestyle, and now it’s almost too late to start over again, get married, settle down and have children. She’s angry that she wasn’t strong enough to get out of the relationship herself and now that its over, it may be too late and she is possibly now living with regret of settling for this lifestyle that she so hated. She’s angry that she wasn’t living for herself but rather for Martin, who she now realizes stole so many good years of her life. She doesn’t know how to deal with these emotions and therefore drinks away her sorrows, but through all this drunken madness she actually comes to many realizations that can’t be left “upstaged” by a drunken performance. She becomes confrontational and makes the firm decision that she is going to live for herself now. This night truly is an emotional rollercoaster and journey for Mon Mon, which I am privileged enough to have the challenging and exciting task of portraying. New aspects of Monika come alive to me every day and I finally feel like I’m strongly developing a character! Look out everyone here comes MON MON!